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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 2, 2013 16:32:39 GMT -5
Blaine let out a huff of frustration. "Kurt, I... yes, okay? Yes, he was an alpha." What else was he supposed to say? Was he supposed to lie about it? Kurt would know, Kurt always knew. "I'm sorry. I've been sorry ever since, I never should have--"
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 2, 2013 16:34:39 GMT -5
"Shh, I know you're sorry," Kurt said, "I--why?"
Kurt felt sick, Rachel was right, of course she was.
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 2, 2013 16:38:38 GMT -5
Blaine could feel tears building in his eyes. He just wanted to get home, but it was still a few more miles. "I... I don't know," he moaned softly. "Kurt, please believe me, I didn't plan t--"
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 2, 2013 16:39:27 GMT -5
"I know you didn't plan to," Kurt said, "But why did you? I just... I don't understand."
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 2, 2013 16:43:34 GMT -5
"I don't know, Kurt, I just did!" Blaine snapped. He didn't want to do this, to rehash it all again. He'd spent enough sleepless nights going through every decision he'd made, every way he could have, should have, acted. He didn't want to do it now, over the phone, with Kurt. The tears were finally getting the best of him, starting to escape, but his breathing hadn't hitched, no gasps or sobs yet, so Kurt was none the wiser. "I don't want to talk about him!"
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 3, 2013 1:49:27 GMT -5
Kurt sighed, frustrated, "Blaine, I'm pretty sure we need to."
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 3, 2013 2:02:56 GMT -5
"Why?" he whimpered, voice cracking. "Kurt he was just a boy that I made a stupid mistake with." He took a shaky breath as he passed another mile-marking road. He could see the house down the way, now. Not much further, he could make it. "If I recall, the last time I tried to talk to you about it, you said it didn't matter."
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 3, 2013 2:05:55 GMT -5
"Because I wasn't trying to forgive you then," Kurt snapped, "And now I am, but in order to do that I think I deserve to know."
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 3, 2013 2:13:27 GMT -5
"Know what? What do you want me to tell you, Kurt?" Blaine was crying, his heart aching and his stomach clenching. Kurt was getting angry. "That he was blond?" This was his fault, Blaine's own, stupid, fault. If he could just answer how Kurt wanted, "Or tall?" if he could just be better and stronger, "Or that his body wash smelled like cinnamon?" if he hadn't been so weak and pathetic and needy all those months ago, this wouldn't be happening. "I'm not a mind-reader, Kurt." He finally reached his own driveway and held the phone against his shoulder again as he turned in and parked.
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 3, 2013 2:17:53 GMT -5
"I just want you to be honest," Kurt said, voice raising, "I want to be able to trust you again and right now I can't. And Rachel's saying awful things and.." He broke off, making an angry sound in the back of his throat.
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 3, 2013 2:21:57 GMT -5
"I'm trying to be! I have been! When did I lie, Kurt?" Blaine asked, shutting the car off. "I've been nothing but honest with you." He stayed in the car, not wanting to walk in the door and have one of his parents over hear their conversation. "Why does Rachel's opinion matter, anyway? She's not a part of this; it's just you and me." His voice was soft and quiet, afraid that he was wrong. That this was just him now, that Kurt was done.
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Post by Kurt Hummel on Feb 3, 2013 2:26:46 GMT -5
"You haven't lied, but I know you're keeping things from me," Kurt said, voice sharp. He paused, breathing hard for a moment, "Y'know what? We should probably cool down and talk about this later." And before Blaine could answer Kurt hung up.
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Post by Blaine Anderson on Feb 3, 2013 2:35:42 GMT -5
"I--" Blaine felt his heart twist when he heard the click of Kurt's phone. He sat in the car for a few more minutes, lip trembling and breathing hard. He didn't understand why Kurt was so angry, why he was demanding so much. He hadn't wanted to know a thing before, and now he was accusing Blaine of holding back. The tears started falling harder as his breathing picked up, and then he was sobbing, keening brokenly to himself, resting his head on the steering wheel and wrapping his arms around himself. He had done it again, had hurt Kurt, had made him mad, had ruined his second chance.
He didn't know how or why or what he'd done wrong this time. He'd tried so hard to be open, had always tried. What could Kurt think he was hiding? Was he even going to call again?
Blaine stayed there for a long time, until his teeth were chattering as the cold wind outside got through and he began hiccuping when the sobs died down. He wiped at his face, gathered his things, and got out of the car, hurrying up the walk to the front door, plastering on his brightest fake smile.
His parents would never notice.
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